Call to Write

“But Moses said to the Lord, “Please, Lord, I have never been a skilled speaker. Even now, after talking to you, I cannot speak well; I speak slowly and can’t find the best words. Now go! I will help you speak, and I will teach you what to say.” (Exodus 3:10, 12, NIV)

Embracing the Journey

Not this shy small-town country girl! I have been taught all my life that God has a plan and his plan is perfect. However, I never imagined or saw myself being the object of his plan.

I have never been an eloquent writer, but I have loved words and books since the 5th grade. I am an avid book reader but what God was calling me to do I wanted out of because I was afraid, I could not complete the task. I wanted to stay hidden under the shed of disbelief until the storm passed. I was full of doubt because I did not know anyone who could coach me through this writing business.

I did not know what to do, only that I was called to do it. So, I offered God many legitimate excuses like I am not the best writer, I don’t always write and speak proper grammar, I get nervous speaking in front of people, and I am an introvert. I even suggested other options to escape this calling, but God said there are no other options. “I will be with you.” “It is your brokenness that I need to use to show people how to dust themselves off and thrive again.” I wrestled with God about what he was calling me to do until I became bone-weary. The truth, however, is God did not wrestle with me he just stayed close over me until I submitted to his legitimate authority.

I am no longer wrestling with the call to write. I am slowly, but sweetly being eased into my new role by the Holy Spirit. I am discovering that I am okay now with my new calling because it took me a long time to find myself after listening to everyone else say I am not good enough. To hear what God was telling me took keeping an opened mind and submitting my will to him. Since hopping reluctantly into my writing life, I’ve learned a lot about myself and about the importance of owning my own story and to use my voice to raise others to another level.

God uses my writings to help me to express my feelings about things I was afraid to talk about in person. I know I am no longer alone as I have become God-dependent not man-dependent or self-dependent. In spite of all my shortcomings and setbacks I have learned to repeat these words like the apostle Paul: “Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God, and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding; will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus” (Philippians 4:6-7)

I am often caught off guard about how creatively God can be. His fingerprints on my life always leave me speechless. I am learning daily how to listen to God and follow his directions. He sent countless messages through strangers, scriptures, and sermons that he was shifting my life out of park into drive, so that those divine seeds he planted in me at birth to try my hands at professional writing would be nurtured to fruition.

For us to hear God’s voice about the call on our life, we must embrace the doctrine of divine guidance. The only way to truly know our calling is through knowing the Word of God. When we open up to God as believers, he will intentionally reveal to us what he wants us to do, and where he wants us to go.

I finally said yes to God, and I have completed five books so far. Please visit my website at www.shespeakswisdomfirst.com to consider purchasing some of my devotional works. I pray that my words given to me by God leave visible stretch marks across your spirit reminding you of how deep you are loved.

Make It a Beautiful & Blessed Day!